Thursday, December 31, 2009

31.12.09.....noiserunners


The_Netork will be on a west coast tour starting in two weeks. My wife will be with them, doing a few songs and making the merch area alot more attractive. Come out and rage...and by rage, I mean bring a nice bottle of grey goose and a desire to watch one of the best live bands I've ever gotten to witness.


For those that aren't familiar with them, The_Network revisit the glory days of 90s noisecore mixed with a punk as fuck attitude. It's done in an almost perfect, nihilistic manner and watching them in a live atmosphere simply cannot be missed....it's brutal, intense, and well worth the price of admission. You may want to bring a helmet.


I'll have another update soon, but in the meantime, here are the dates above.
You can listen to them here: www.myspace.com/thenetworkmetal

Commence rage.


Wednesday, August 26, 2009

26.08.09.....None more connection


Above is a picture of me from a year and a half ago. I had a box of 38 vegan donuts. It was a magical couple of hours.


I broke my phone.

Well, not really. Wait....yes, I did. But, it was the result of my tazmanian devil of a rat terrier, who thoroughly enjoys running between my legs when I walk around the house. One quick dash from his skinny getaway sticks caused him to dart underneath me, which , in turn, caused me to trip, drop my phone and consequently step on it.

Because of this, I am now part of the iphone generation. I am partially disgusted with myself for submitting so easily. The other part of me is proud to know I was willing to join modern technology and accept it. The iphone is.....pretty fun, to be honest.

I have found it very, very entertaining. I got drunk and got a twitter account ( I will not tell you what my name is on there....my mother occasionally reads this, and, mom...you don't need to know how much shit I talk when I'm drunk. I'm doing this for your benefit...)

I have eliminated any way to contact me on the internets besides my email address. I have no online connection anymore, and I find it exhilaratingly liberating.

That's enough about the iphone.

I went outside and sat on my front steps this morning, breathing in deeply. Fall is almost here. That magical time where nature rubs my belly and I wag my leg uncontrollably like a dog. That beautiful scent of leaves dying, of crisp, cool air filling my lungs. The only thing better than knowing fall is coming, is knowing that I'll be on tour during my favorite season. Not just any tour, mind you.....a tour that will be FUN. A tour where everyone in the van is fucking awesome. Oh, by the way....we fired another drummer. He sucked. Bad. He will be talked about forever....that's how epically bad he sucked.

Anyways, back to the tour. I can't say who our new drummer is. All I can say is that he is one of the best dudes I've ever met, and he's an absolutely amazing drummer. I hope this works out. Shit, after six drummers in the last two and a half years, I'd almost sacrifice a couple fingers to make sure of it.

The tour is stacked. The Black Dahlia Murder, Skeletonwitch and Toxic Holocaust. Basically, it's a big party. It's a bunch of great guys all on tour together. I seriously want to do nothing but go insane for the month long trek. Toxic tea for everyone.

I fly back east in two weeks to do the vocals for our new EP, which should be out before the end of the year. The plans have changed. Three new songs, one remake of an old song, and one cover that will be very kvlt and unexpected. I'd never heard the song before Brian sent it to me.....mostly because I'm not a metal dude. I can say, however, it's a punk as fuck cover and it will be really, really fun.

Lyric writing for the next full length is in full swing. I kind of feel like I dug my own grave by making Seizures... so extensive. The next LP will follow the formula.....three sets of lyrics, etc. It is going to be thematically, very heavy and very, very dark. I don't really feel there's any other option. When you create a fictional ghost town, you can't really make anything very positive. I have about six songs done so far, which, when I look at the length of each piece, could easily be a double LP for most bands. The major trick with the next record is to actually convince people I'm not trying to be as pretentious as it may seem. Let's face it.....these are punk songs put through the metal grinder. I'm better than no one. What it burns down to, is that it's one hundred percent necessary to make each effort this band does absolutely devestating. You're not going to leave in impact rehashing everything that's been done a billion time before. You create art. You make it dangerous. You take risks, knowing full well that most of the collective public will not embrace it the way you do. Fuck it. Make enemies.


I just finished Neil Gaiman's "American Gods". Thank you Ryan, from VA Beach. I know it took me forever to find the time, but I'm glad I did. That novel is great. I've gone off about Roberto Bolano's "2666" many times on here....I almost feel as if Gaiman's novel could be considered a distant cousin. Epic, haunting, and beautiful.....all wrapped up into one little package.


That's it. Signing off. I need to go blow something up.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

15.08.09......

I feel as though I should update this. Maybe tell you a little more of what I've done since I got home? Nah. Boring.
I did a few good things.
On my wife and I's anniversary, Trap Them played a show with SUNNO))) down the street from our house. The show went very well....for anyone who was there, you know that we made our mark....I especially left many marks all over the stage.
The next morning, I took Smashley Jean Coffins McKenney away to a beach house in western Washington. It was, hands down, the best three days our relationship has ever had. I've never seen someone become so enthralled in their surroundings, but from the moment we were within the scent of the ocean, it was as if the lady was unable to frown.
It was very refreshing.

I'm now home until October, rolling burritos and saving money to afford to go back out on tour.

This seriously has to be the dumbest update ever.

current playlist includes:
masakari
torch runner
vaccine - demo
burning love - demo
coliseum - true quiet / last wave 7"
royal monsters 7"
the sounds - crossing the rubicon
GDP - realistic expectations
saviours - into abaddon LP
Run With the Hunted

Thursday, July 16, 2009

16.07.09......Nothing is Fucked Here

Where, oh where to begin. I am sitting here in an apartment in Echo Park in sweltering Los Angeles, waiting to head over to the Knitting Factory for tonight's show with Skeletonwitch and Saviours. It's kind of an important day. Tomorrow something will finally be anounced that has been in the works for quite some time.
Re-cap time? Sure. Why not.

Flew into Boston. Drove twelve straight hours to Pittsburgh to pick up Scuba, followed by five more hours to end up in Indianapolis. Spent fourth of July setting off fireworks. I, unfortunately, didn't get to blow anything major up.
The first two shows on the way back to Seattle were not mindblowingly amazing. They were, however, shows. I can't complain. We then found ourselves in Denver at the Blast-o-mat, a fantastically run DIY space. I was able to see my friend Morgan and chat for a little bit. The show itself turned out to be great. After two lackluster responses, it felt very redeeming to play a place we hadn't been to and have a reaction that we got from the onset.

And then came the drive.
Denver to Seattle.
Theoretically, it is only a nineteen hour drive. No big deal for a band that somehow finds itself with more than a handful of 20-35 hour drives tucked in our distorted belts.
Theoretically.
What we didn't account for, is to have a coolant pipe burst at 7 a.m. in the middle of Wyoming.
Hello, setback! My, how I've missed you.
In the grand scheme, it could have been WAY worse, but considering we had no money and had just driven cross country in this behemoth gas guzzler, it was not exactly what we wanted to happen. To make it worse, we WERE headed straight back to Seattle. You know....home. You know.....wife and dog and close friends.
All in all....we only got delayed about ten hours. This was after fixing the initial problem and then focusing our concern on a transmission light that turned on.
We made it to Seattle, though, early in the day. I spent some time with my wonderful wife who, even after being gone only seven days, is a sight for sore eyes. I wrestled with my basket case of a dog.
We met up with Skeletonwitch and Saviours that night to initiate our two week excursion down and around the absolute hottest areas the country has to offer in the dead of summer.
First three shows of this tour:
Seattle - awesome. drank too much. very fun night.
Portland - very fucking awesome. got to hang with the Toxic Holocaust dudes. drank too much. the show sounded amazing.
Berkely - gilman. awesome. The show was great. I did, however, drink too much way to early and wandered away from the venue before we played.

After that, shit got heavy again. The van broke down for a second time in a week. After a day and a half, it was fixed, forcing us to only miss one show. We now live in constant fear of our Big Ben, our green machine that has taken our asses around the country so many times.

The rest of the shows have been a good time. We've met some very good people and things seem to be looking up. Plus, throw into the equation being able to watch Saviours every night is awesome. Skeletonwitch? Probably the tightest playing band I have ever seen. Everyone's having a good time.
This is our first tour with a major roadie / tour manager, and it is incredible how much it helps out. The dude does so much work and he's so down for the cause, I feel lucky we were able to have him give up on real life and become a road ready motherfucker.

I guess that's it for now. We've got another ten or so shows before we go our seperate ways.
So, to wrap up.....Trap Them will be able to anounce news very soon.
One off show in Seattle on August 5th with SUNNO))), The Accused and Black Breath. It's part of a Southern Lord showcase. Hmmmm......

Full U.S. tour starting in October and going into November. Details soon. We are very happy with it.

Europe? UK? We're working on it.

Oh, and Australia.....prepare to be invaded. And, yes, to keep with tradition.....details soon.

If you live in an area that feels like a heatbox, chances are we'll be near you in the next week. Come out and rage. Scars align.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

01.07.09.....filth rations


I leave tomorrow for another tour. I will fly from Seattle to Boston to play four shows across the country and then start the actual tour back here in Seattle. Yeah. Trap Them will be out for the following two weeks with Skeletonwitch and Saviours. West coast and then heading towards Texas. In July. The only question in my head is not IF I will get heatstroke, but when.

I've been home for three weeks and have basically torn apart Seattle.....and it kind of felt pretty fucking awesome.

I don't know if this statement will make sense to anyone, but I'm at a point where personal safety is not a concern, especially when I am on tour playing shows. My wife hates hearing me say things like this, and I can't blame her. I tried remaining somewhat calm for a very long time, but the dam finally burst. Fuck it. I was supposed to be dead by thirty....at least, that's what I figured would happen while I was in my twenties. I had a very vivid dream a few weeks ago that the blonde bombshell I sleep next to had passed away and left me to be on my own, and it was one of the worst nightmares I'll ever have. I made her promise that I get to die before her. She looked at me with such sad, loving eyes, knowing I was being very serious. This is what it's like living an imbalanced lifestyle. You cause hurt and fear without even trying. Trouble finds you.


Where am I going with this?


So, I guess where I'm going with this is to say that I'll see you all soon and I'm sorry if bad things happen to you while we're playing as a result of my increasing disregard. Just show up and let's open our wounds together. When you mix blood and sweat, it actually smells very nice.


And, if any of you ever meet my wife, tell her she's a saint in a sinner's body for wanting to spend the rest of her life with me. It still boggles my mind that two sick people can find each other.


Let's fucking rage.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

14.06.09.....and rage you did




I never put show pictures up or anything, but this is the exception. I don't know if anyone reads this that was there, but for all of you that came to the scion show with Municipal Waste last wednesday.....thank you. I can honestly say I've never had such an insane show. Sold out crowd of 600. Chaos from the moment feedback was brought. Blood. Endless stage dives. BALCONY dives. Trap Them doesn't usually garner that type of reaction. That night, Hollywood made four angry young men very very happy.


I'll have a tour recap sometime soon, but this show deserved it's own post.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

21.05.09.....a futile attempt at recapping

So, I'm hermited away up in Salem, NH at a cheap little hotel, where I've been for the last two days. We leave tomorrow morning for Baltimore, en route to the one and only Maryland Deathfest. This weekend will begin a tour with our Swedish brothers in Victims and Seattle's finest...also known as Black Breath. I'm incredibly excited about this tour for too many reasons to list. Plain and simple? It's going to be fucking fun....two bands I really enjoy watching and listening to, and to have the opportunity to watch them every night for a few weeks is exactly my cup of tea.

Where do I begin to document the last six weeks of touring? I sat here and thought about it and have no definitive answer. Most important is that I made some great new friends....the type I rarely make, which means I actually can't wait to see them again, can't wait to have more conversations and do a bunch of dumb shit. Things were blown up, laughter was in high gear and I survived my first successful blackout.
My battle wounds from this tour are rather large. My legs look likeI stuck them in meat grinders, my torso full of odd colored bruises and small lacerations. About halfway through the tour, my contempt for playing in front of barriers caused me to leave the stage by any means necessary as much as possible, including a stint in Montreal where I climbed into the balcony before realizing the mic cord had no more give.
After most of the shows there were a few diehards that would come to the merch table where I was usually stationed and would apologize for the small attendance. I had to explain to them that there's nothing to worry about. When you're the first band on a five band package, odds are people aren't going to show up at 7pm, which was around the time we played every night on this. It meant nothing to me. We were on tour with incredible bands and just playing every night was enough. I don't go into these tours expecting legions of people to attend early. It's just not the way it works. Instead, I made sure the ones that were there, the few that were familiar with us, were given every ounce of rage and intensity we had within us, and I think that was accomplished. Sure, small clubs are ideal...basements, halls, etc., but when it comes down to it, you have 20-30 minutes a night to do what you do. Be it a kitchen, a warehouse or a football field, I just don't give a fuck. I love doing this and as long as there are any witnesses, at the end of the set, there should be no confusion as to how serious we take our art.
I got to see many familiar faces during this stint, the ones that saw us play to five people. They'd ask me whether I could believe I was on tour with Napalm Death or not. Honestly, it still blows me away. I watched them almost every night without fail. I would spend the hours before the shows talking with Barney about everything random. There is a reason some bands become icons at their respective genres, and ND proved that to me night after night. Have you heard the new record? No? Go buy it. Now. No bias needed, it is absolutely fantastic. Some of the best songs they have ever done are on it....I'd go as far as to say it's my favorite album they've done, especially after hearing so many of the new songs played live.
And.....Toxic Holocaust and Coliseum. Fuck yes. I'm going to have a hard time putting into words how much fun I had with these guys on this tour. I was able to appreciate them as people, for who they are as opposed to just the music they write. It was just......fucking fun, you know? I looked forward to showing up to the venue every day, seeing Joel stagger out of the Toxic van, playing air guitar and headbanging. I looked forward to Chris from Coliseum riding his bike around, hopped up on caffiene, cackling like a maniac. I had great talks with Ryan about why we do this shit we do.
Yeah.....the drives killed me a bit. There were some tough ones on this tour, which caused many a brain cell in all of us to get a little fried from time to time. But, every drive had a purpose, and that purpose was to get to another stage where we could take our 20 to 30 minutes and fucking go down in a blaze of glory.

I guess that's it......I'm no good at daily journal stuff. I can't break down what was done every moment of the tour.

Many other things happened during this time that I really wish I could blab about right now, but, sadly, I can't quite yet. Trap Them will have TONS of news very soon. Tours, recordings, lives, etc. All go, no fucking slow.

I can say that we are doing one of Scion's free metal shows on June 10th. It will be in Los Angeles at the Knitting Factory with Municipal Waste. So fucking awesome. We are flying out from the middle of the Victims tour for this show. Come rage. Hard.

After the Victims tour is complete, I will fly home for three whole weeks (!). I then fly back to Boston where we will do six days across the country before arriving in Seattle on July 9th, where we start tour with Skeletonwitch and Saviours. This tour is heavy on the west coast and midwest...we also get to go back to Austin, which makes us very happy. Dear Texas, we're sorry it took us almost two years to come back and visit you before the Napalm tour. We'll make sure to drop in more often...it seems as if you like us....you really, really like us.

After that tour, there's a little time off. The fall season looks very.....interesting. There is this tour that we're crossing our fingers for. IF it happens, you will hear me scream bloody distortion from the hills. I don't want to get my hopes up.

We will be recording in August. Again.....information on this on hush hush right now. I can tell you it will be an EP with three new songs and three covers. And I can tell you that it will be heavy as catholic guilt. Everything else will find it's way to the information booths very, very soon.

In life news: my wife still loves me even though I'm never home, which is amazing. When I saw her in Portland, I brought her roses. She brought me donuts.....we understand each other.
My dog probably thinks I'm a deadbeat dad, which sucks. That's okay....when I get home, I'm going to spoil the shit out of him.

Also, the Corridor album, "Redux Doze" is out now on Manimal Vinyl records. Do NOT sleep on this record.

Current listening loves:

Gallows "Grey Britain"
Stax 50th anniversary box set
The Temptations "Definitive collection"
Kylesa "Static Tensions"
Hail of Bullets
Duffy "Rockferry"
all The Who we have in the van
Ceremony - all
I don't know....lots of heavy shit, fast shit, creepy shit....there's been a lot of driving hours


and, some of you may shake your head in shame for me, but I don't care.....does anyone watch Grey's Anatomy? Did ANY of you see that twist ending for the season finale coming? I, for one, did not and it kind of blew me away. I don't know why I love a show that depresses me so much, but I do. Call me a masochist.

Done.

Monday, April 13, 2009

13.04.09

We're on the fourth day of the ND tour. We are the first band on a five band package, so we're playing to about a quarter of the amount of people that will end up at the show. This would be considered yet more of the old "paying the dues".
Chris from Coliseum did and amazing interpretive trap them song yesterday. beat box style.
Toxic Holocaust introduced me to "toxic tea". It is also referred to as "the green shit". I like it no matter what you call it.
Lots of Panera parking lots after long drives.

This is all for now. Too much driving and loading and merch selling to think. I haven't been able to find time to read a book in a week. I feel guilty.

So, yeah.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

08.04.09


Tour has officialy begun.

I need to learn to stretch so that the day after the first show, my body doesn't look like the picture above.


currently reading: Guns, Germs and Steel by Jared Diamond


I said the next post would be moderately adequate....I think I've acheived mediocrity.


Give it a week......much more will need to be said.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

01.04.09

I went to a show last night.
A very popular American black metal band played.
Everyone in the sold out crowd loved it....except me. I don't get it. I don't even WANT to get it. I am probably 99% wrong, but it seems like that genre is saturated with passionless bullshit when it's done by Americans. I know there are some good black metal bands from here....I've been taught well by someone who has given a shit before giving a shit was worth giving a shit. But, it still doesn't change the fact that it's a lot of what I don't desire out of extreme music.
This isn't even an angry rant or anything of that ilk, but more of a brisk shrug of the shoulders, since that is really all the effort I'm willing to put into something that means so little to me.

I have four days until I fly back east. I hug my dog for about eight hours a day, knowing how long it is until I see him again. I kiss my wife and tell her she's pretty. I try to get a drink with everyone that I can handle a conversation with for longer than five minutes.

I'm going to have a movie day today.
Halfway through writing this post, I realized how unimportant it is...I could have waited a week and had much more to say.

I just sold all of my paintings and climbed out of debt. A very large publishing company just signed me for a three book deal, including an autobiography.
They gave me a ridiculous signing bonus, so my wife and I are going to be fulfilling my life long dream and moving to London in August. Everything is perfect and I have more money than I've ever had in my life!
Oh, wait.....April fools.

I think I broke my nose twice on tour last fall and never fixed it, so my breathing has become gnarly. I can't wait to have it happen all over again.
I think that's about it. The next update will be....mindblowing? Well, we'll settle for moderately adequate.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

26.03.09

Trap Them will be recording a new EP in july. there will be new songs and we're recording a handful of covers. Some will make sense and some will make you scratch your head. More details in the coming months. After that, we'll be doing a few weeks on the west coast and into the midwest. More details in the coming months. I want the rest of my teeth to finally fall out of my head. More details in the coming months.

Cryptic today, aren't we? Hmmmmm?

I have two short stories that, for the life of me, I'm too lazy to do anything with. Maybe when my motivation is in high gear and my debt is in low gear, I will print them up in book form and sell them on a tour. Really, don't hold your breath....all five of you that may be interested. It may take a while for this to happen.

Lyrics have taken shape for the next LP. There is a title. There are about ten days finished as of this point....well, not finished. Perhaps, we'll say, very fleshed out and 80% complete. Want the title? Not telling. Want details? Okay....Barren Praise has turned into a writhing ball of hate. I'm very satisfied with the direction.

Much like my time left in Seattle, my whiskey bottle is almost out. I'm going to go take care of this situation right now.

I saw "Last House on the Left" the other night. It was good. Not amazing. But, it absolutely didn't suck. It was sadistic and depraved, as it should be.

I don't know who actually reads all this bullshit, but thanks.

Monday, March 23, 2009

23.03.09...want/need...then/now


About three years ago, I had a record collection that, quite simply put, was to die for. I was not a collector nerd. I was a music enthusiast. There is a very large difference. I had a wall of LPs. I had 7"s in a shelving unit...six drawers of EPs. It was an overwhelmingly great spread. My friends would come over and sift through them, always pulling something out and saying something along the lines of, "Are you fucking kidding me? Where did you get this?" To which I would have to reply I went to the show when they played. Or I pre-ordered it, etc.

I worked at a record store for five plus years, and every little disorted gem that came through the back of that store in shipment I, more times than not, ended up purchasing.

I didn't buy clothes, or shoes, or cars....or, a lot of the times, food.

I bought records, cd, and dvds.


Present day, I now have about a tenth of the records I had back then. I sold them all. Not for pointless shit, not for every day needs. I sold these records off little by little to afford a touring lifestyle. Those records paid for plane tickets. They paid for ordering another box of t-shirts, for recording, for extra gas in the van. Those records paid for things that were necessary.

I've had so many people I know ask me how I could do this. So many people not able to understand how I was able to part with some of these gems. For me, that's where I realized I'm different than a lot of the people I know that value their possessions more than thier lives. I traded a wall of sound for a few years of making it. An LP can't drive you around the country or fly you to Europe to play shows for three weeks.


Do I miss them? Fuck yeah, I do. I miss them dearly. I miss the pining through the shelves for hours on end, being able to grab something I forgot I had, taking out that beautiful slab of vinyl and placing it carefully on the record player, dropping the needle and turning up the receiver loud.

When I sold these records, I made sure to play all of them one last time, giving them the respect they deserved. It was much like having my own musical autobiography, seeing as I was selling things that had taken up the last fifteen years of my life. I remembered which show I had bought something at, remembered coming home from work with a big mailorder package waiting for me at the front door. All of those things.


I did what I needed to do to make things happen and I don't regret it. I know that within the next few years, I'l slowly build that monster back up to what it used to be, and I know it will feel even better this time around. Being in my forties, sifting through those shelves, will mean just as much as it did twenty plus years previous. Until then, I can be happy with what I have: less records, but a full time touring schedule, the opportunity to create albums of my own, and personal artistic expression without barriers.


Boys, girls, men, women....sell what you own if it gets you to where you want to be. Don't worry, odds are the kids that buy your records from you will become jaded and disinterested within five years and will sell them back to you if you want them. If you're a lifer, then you know this already.


This whole piece just kind of seems like a downer. In a way, it's like trying to explain your longest relationship in your life, and how it ended, and whether or not there's hope for the future. Don't worry, wall of distortion....you'll be back in my arms as soon as can be. I just have some things to take care of in this life before we'll be able to see each other again. I know you'll understand, and I promise you'll have new friends added to you on a weekly basis as long I can still find my way to a record store.

Friday, March 20, 2009

20.03.09


if any of you have the catharsis LPs for "samsara" and "passion", please sell them to me. i've been hunting way too long and just want this ordeal over with.


Wednesday, March 11, 2009

11.03.09



dearest information superhighway...
It's been about two months since my last confession.
I don't have too much excitement to report, other than the usual.

My job as a burrito roller has been well recieved by the cast of characters I work with. For the time being, as in while I'm not on tour, this job suits me pretty damn perfect. Almost too perfect. Make food. Eat food. Drink. Drank. Drunk. Go home.

My next confession is rather HUGE on a personal interests front. Let me preface this with the quickest long story short ever. So, I've been an avid fan of Clive Barker's "Abarat" series. You know the one I mean?...The one with Candy Quackenbush visiting an undiscovered world? Yeah....it's fantastic. It has all the brilliant characteristics I desire in my fantasy novels, for which I read very few. Herein lies the problem....this is supposed to be a series of five books. The first one came out in 2002...the second in 2005(?). So far, this is all he has done. Two books in SEVEN YEARS. And, from what I gather...the third volume hasn't even been started. Clive, my man....you're killing me here.
Okay....so, long story short time:

Because of how much I loved this series, I continuously shot down the very notion that J.K. Rowling's "Harry Potter" series was anything but second rate.
Fast forward to January of this year of the rat. A local bookstore had a 20% off sale, so you know my night readerism had a huge boner. I spent about sixty dollars on clearance books. Right before I got in line to check out, I looked at one last display. There, slightly taunting me, was a hardcover copy of Rowling's "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone" for two dollars. Two dollars. With the discount it would be just a bit over a buck and a half. I said, "Fuck it..." and tossed it in the shopping basket.
Two weeks later, after running through most of the books I had bought, it sat there and stared at me. I finally picked it up and started reading.
Twenty minutes, two chapters, later, I closed the book, sighed heavily and simply said "..shit..".
My wife looked over at me in a concerning way and asked what was wrong. I looked back at her, looked down at the weathered, second hand book, and then simplay said, "...this is really good."
I read the whole first volume that night, unable to put it down. I waited a week before going back to the bookstore, as I was preoccupied with the 900 page behemoth, "2666" by Roberto Bolano which, by the way, was so goddamn epic, the last hundred pages simply astounded me. Highly, highly recommended if you have a good week or two to kill.
After "2666", I was ready. I went back to the bookstore and bought the remaining Potter volumes (my mother, who works for a town schooling system, sent me the third, fourth and fifth volumes, knowing I didn't have expendable income to purchase six more books that month). I then proceeded to read volumes two through seven over the next three weeks.
It was an unbelievably fantastic series to read. I wanted to hate it, and, instead, I'm in love with these books. I HATE fantasy novels...wizards, dragons, etc. never interested me until I read this series. The last book almost hurt to read, knowing this little literary journey was on it's last leg. I had to talk myself out of starting all over and reading them again, knowing there's other novels calling my name.
Laugh if you want, but the Harry Potter series was exactly what I needed.

Last confession:
As much as I love being home, for the time being, I am a man of the road. I find myself easier to deal with and I feel like I'm accomplishing things better. I don't know how long it will be this way, but it seems like it will be for quite a while. In the end, as much as I want my feet to be cemented within the heart of rain city, it's better to do the thing that I do best, which is release my bipolaristic tendencies in twenty minute intervals on a daily basis. Two homes and two lives all squished into one six foot frame.

I leave again in a little under a month. I will be on a great tour that spreads across the entire country and parts of canada. This will last for about five and a half weeks, in which time Trap Them will then play Maryland Death Fest, followed by a three and a half week tour with the swedish men that introduced me to red wine mixed with diet coke (heavenly). We aren't allowed to talk about this tour until April, but I can say this band is KILLER.
Plans for this summer are starting to take shape. Dude Fest will happen, as with a few other tours being worked on. A tentative plan is to record a new EP so that we'll have a new release in 09. The other tentative plan is to record a new LP in late fall/ early winter. More news on that will make it's way to the internerds very soon.
Fall will also, again, be spent in the van. If the tours that are being talked about actually happen, I will be in full sonic bliss each and every night. This is what I do. This is how I make my living, no matter how bizarre it may seems to anyone on the outside. I provide better for my wife and son(son being puppy) in that van than I could ever do here in Seattle...at least right now.

Shit....I know there's more to talk about. It's been two months.
Fuck it....I'll remember in May or something.

Currents awesomes:
Film:
Before the Devil Knows You're Dead
Little Children
The Harry Potter series (watched after reading the books....the films are great. It's as if they took the volumes and made them all cinematic novellas)
The Wackness (perfect description of a virgin that loves hip-hop in the early nineties...not that I would know or anything....except, yes...I know very well...)
Frost / Nixon
Gran Torino
Blindness
.....and I liked Watchmen very much, because I'm not an elitist douche bag that wants to watch a three hour film and then bitch and moan about everything. I also like horror remakes. Almost all of them. I like almost all comic book films. Everyone wants to find faults in everything...maybe that's one of the reasons the world is so fucked....no one wants to enjoy anything for what it is anymore. Your loss.
Books:

Again...the HP series
2666 by Roberto Bolano
Motherless Brooklyn by Jonathan Lethem
currenty about to read: The Flood by Ian Rankin, followed by The Ruins by Scott Smith

Audio assaults:

Dismember - s/t
new Mono
wolfbrigade - comalive
rotten sound - cycles
16 - bridges to burn
warcry - not so distant future EP
propagandhi - supporting caste
milligram - this is class war
mogwai - the hawk is howling
cast iron hike - watch it burn
born dead icons - work
anaphylactic shock - two thousand years
new Mind Eraser
many more....my wife got me an ipod nano for christmas....walking the dog has never been so fun.
speaking of my dog, up top is a picture. the blanket has since been eaten.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

10.01.09

holy shit!
two updates in a week?
You know what that means, right? Exactly....you probably won't hear from me again until September.

Moving on....

I have started 2009 with some pretty awesome reads. Among them:

Just After Sunset by Stephen King - shocker, I know. I don't need to say much. It's just really, really good. More short stories to tide me over until this next novel (tentatively titled Under The Dome I believe...) blows my goddamned mind. He's already gone on record as saying it's his longest novel and that it's one of the darkest stories he's ever written. I guess he's tried to write it twice so far, but it hasn't come out as brutal as he wanted until now.

The Alcoholic by Jonathan Ames - graphic novel. Depressing as all hell, but one of the best reads out there. Do yourself a favor and get this.

and, last but not least, I broke down and started reading the Harry Potter books. I put this off for so long. I, for some reason, really didn't want to like them. After the first twenty pages of the first book, I had to literally put the book down, take a big breath and mutter to myself, "Shit...this is really good." What can I say? Well, I'll wait to say it once I've read the other six volumes.

I was also given a novel titled 2666 from the author Roberto Bolano by our good friends John and Darci. I had read about the book, but never got a chance to buy it. At nine hundred pages, it may take a while to get through, but the plot is so insane, I can't wait to start it.

That's enough book nerd talk. Besides, I can't hang with the big guns. I like crime fiction and fantasy and horror novels. I don't spend much time with all the authors you can name drop at social gatherings.

Mickey Rourke's performance in "The Wrestler" should give him an Oscar, but it won't happen. This movie killed me in the best of ways.

fin.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

06.01.09

It was brought to my attention that I haven't written anything on here in three months.
So, here's a recap:
I went to Europe. Trap Them did a three and a half week tour with Grief. It was much different than our first European experience, but at the root of it all, we still had a very good time. The guys in Grief had me laughing quite a bit. It was nice to tour with a bunch of fellow native New Englanders. I also had a passionate romance with alcohol each and every night, which is understandable if I went into great detail about the tour. Most would be surprised I didn't drink more.

Flew back home and had one day off before we did a week down the west coast with These Arms are Snakes and Narrows. It was, to be honest, one big party. Everyone had a great time. Every band sounded fantastic and at the end of the tour, even though I had been out for three months, I wished that this last leg had been another week or two.

Flew home from Los Angeles to Seattle with my ladyfriend, who was able to accompany us shitheads on this last week of tour. It was nice to have her there...nice to be able to see her after such a long time apart. When we landed at Sea-Tac, we were greeted by glorious snow. More snow than I'd ever seen while living here. After an extended cab ride back to the house, I immediately had to start christmas shopping, seeing as I hadn't had the opportunity to do it while in the numerous vans.
A day later, Seattle was hit with one of the hardest snowstorms it's had in a very long time. It lasted for days, turning the city into a white wonderland. Now, you have to understand, Seattle has only TWO PLOWS for the entire city and surrounding areas, because it never snows. So, when something like this happens, the city literally shuts down. Major streets and roads are shut off because of ice on hills. People sledding in the middle of streets. Utter and awesome chaos. This lasted for three days, causing my wife to not be able to make it to work. We took advantage of the situation and became lazy hermits.

Everything after that was your usual holiday routine. We had a christmas eve gathering as well as on New Year's. I've started to write for a few things and have begun the new series of paintings for the last Trap Them record. I've been able to read and relax, so now it's hopefully time for me to be successful in my job search.

That's about it. I gave the long story short, because I'm very good at that.

LOST begins in just two weeks. I'm so excited, I don't know what to do with myself.

below is my reading list for 2008. 2009 has already started with some amazing works, and looks to get better. I have other things to say about what I'll be doing this year, but I can't talk about them yet. It's kind of like Fight Club, but not at all.

also....I posted a lengthy story below this post.

Listen to Black Breath. And Heiress.

2008 reading list:

Hollywood Horror by Mark Vieira
The Consumer by M. Gira (again)
Pictures of You by Matt Thorne
Exquisite Corpse by Poppy Z. Brite
Liquor by Poppy Z. Brite
Soul Kitchen by Poppy Z. Brite
The Fahrenheit Twins by Michel Faber
The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon by Stephen King
A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole
D.U.C.K. by Poppy Z. Brite
Crystal Lake Memories by Peter M. Bracke
Shutter Island by Dennis Lehane
White Noise by Don DeLillo
The Siege of Trencher's Farm by Gordon M. Williams
The Best Revenge by Stephen White
The Secret Life of Laszlo. Count Dracula by Roderick Anscombe
Insomnia by Stephen King
Bag of Bones by Stephen King
Prime by Poppy Z. Brite
Desperation by Stephen King
Hearts in Atlantis by Stephen King
Rose Madder by Stephen King
Lisey's Story by Stephen King
Heartsick by Chelsea Cain
The Regulators by Richard Bachman
Bleeding London by Geoff Nicholson
Lost Boy Lost Girl by Peter Straub
Everything's Eventual by Stephen King
Bigfoot: I Not Dead by Graham Roumieu
From the Dust Returned by Ray Bradbury
Duma Key by Stephen King
From a Buick 8 by Stephen King
The Value of X by Poppy Z. Brite
Heart-Shaped Box by Joe Hill
Dreamcatcher by Stephen King
The Hellfire Club by Peter Straub
Blaze by Richard Bachman
Love That Dog by Sharon Creech
Underworld by Don DeLillo

The Constant Reader

I have quite a few regrets. None of them amount to very much, which is to say that on the grand life scale, the things that I have chosen not to do are, for the lack of better terms, unsubstantial. I don't regret not going to college. I don't regret quitting my first job out of high school. I don't regret not engaging in meaningless conversation with everyone around me. I don't regret keeping to myself.
No, my sincere regrets are minimal. They more have to do with personal choices that I've made over the years that, when I look back, may have helped me a bit more in the present. Specifically, I regret that I hadn't fully embraced who I am a lot earlier in my days and gone for broke before I started to hit thirty.
This isn't really about that, though. This is about lost time in another area, and it's very close to being a reget that I had no control over. My major gripe with myself? I really, truly wish I had read a lot more books when I was younger. Not too major, huh? Well, the root of it is fairly simple. I've found myself so buried in turning pages over the last few months, so engulfed in fictional and nonfictional character's lives, that I wished I had taken the time to get to know even more of these people, these places, these things. It's not something that will leave me on my deathbed screaming, "Why?!!! Whhhyyyy??!!". It's just a Spicolli-sized bummer for me.
I had started out alright. My mother provided fuel for the fire in me to gather as much information (real or unreal) as possible. My birthday presents from about four years old on had always included at least one book, sometimes more. I read a lot. Not just book books, but comics, cartoons, anything I could get my hands on. To this day, I have a hardbound coffee table book about The Muppet Show that was given to me by my grandmother at five years old. Garfeild books. Batman comics. The Time-Life Mysteries of the Unknown series.Christmas books (two in particular that I remember are "The Sweet Smell of Christmas", which was a scratch and sniff book that I read about forty times every holiday season, and a book with a name along the lines of "Little Miss Suzy" or something to that effect, about a squirrel trying to hide inside a home during Christmas. At least, I think it was a Christmas book. We are talking twenty five plus years ago....I can't remember everything.)
As soon as I began elementary school, the library became a regular visiting station for me. Once a week, usually Saturday afternoon, my mom would drive me down to the Dover Public Library, a beautiful, three story brick building set around a legion of maple(?) trees. I can remember looking up at the building and always feeling so important walking into that place. The building itself was old, and planted right there where it was, set back behind a feild of green grass, I can now fully understand why some people are such die-hard, small town New Englanders. The major buildings are few and far between in these locations, but they always look to have been built with the care and consideration that is probably overlooked as the five plus story addresses became dimes of a dozen in larger, more populated areas.
The first summer vacation from school? I saw that library quite a bit, as I did every summer after that. Second and third grade was when I had discovered young adult suspense novels. The names R.L. Stine and Christopher Pike come to mind, though I don't really remember much about any of the books, only that someone would go missing and one hundred fifty pages later, they'd be found. I loved reading The Far Side Comics by Gary Larson, which made my mother quite happy, since she shared my bizarre and sometimes sick sense of humor.
It was mid way into my third grade year of school when it all happened, when things got darker and, in turn, the light in the attic started to shine brighter. Some people pull out the small violins and tell you that they had no friends, that they were the nerd in school, blah, blah, blah. I'm going to be honest and just tell you I was the vanilla center in the neopolitan bowl of ice cream that was the Dover School system. I was there, I had a reason to be there, but the reason wasn't very important. I was filler. I had a few friends. None that would last beyond a given school year, but I still had a few. I was pretty boring to most of the kids that came over. I hated "playing". I hated "hanging out". I really, really liked entertaining myself. I did, however, have a friend named Conor that was a good kid. We'd go over each other's homes quite a bit that third grade year.
So, what happened you ask? Well, Conor introduced me to a great, great friend. A friend that I have kept to this day, who has been there time and time again for me on rainy, snowy, or just plain shitty days, though he doesn't even know it. He's kept me entertained and has helped me bring out some of my true emotions late at night when no one is looking, here in overcast Seattle, when my wife is asleep beside me. He's told me all about love, about life, and, most importantly, about fear. He's a fantastic, brilliant person, and I honestly hope he outlives me, so that he can continue to rip apart all the boards up in my attic. His name is Stephen King.
Conor probably doesn't even remember me. He was a pretty popular kid in my later school years, so an early friend when he was still young can't really take up too much of his memory, I'd assume. And, truthfully, if it wasn't for the night at hand, I'd have probably forgotten about him a long time ago as well. That's the nature of school friends. It lived and breathed at the first ring of the bell on the first day of the school year and tended to die a quick and painless death the moment the last bell was rung deep in June. You'd run outside, ready to throw your backpack in an open field. You'd wave goodbye to the familiar faces and then forget they existed until the following September. Zombie friendships.
Everything isn't crystal clear to me, but there's enough there to make it a story. Or, at least try. Conor's mother was nice enough to allow me to sleep over on a friday night. There was something us kids had to do involving school that kept us there until long after most of the other students had left. Not detention, that stage of my life took a few more years to come to fruition. No, it was some sort of project, or sports game.....something. I really wish I could think of it. She picked us up around five o'clock, in which we left the school and walked outside into brisk winter New Hampshire air. It was already dark, and I absolutely remember that, so it must have been around late January or early February. It wasn't snowing, though there was a faint sleet passing down all around us that had made way for a half inch layer of slush to soak our sneakers. It may have only been a fifteen second run to her car, but it was enough time to let the wetness sneak it's way in and surround our socks and chill our feet.
I had been looking forward to the sleepover. Conor's mom would let us rent movies well beyond our age. Lots of them were horror films. His house was where I saw The Omen for the first time. Same with Halloween. It'd be a few more years before my mom would realize how much I thrived in horror culture, in which time she introduced me to Alfred Hitchcock (which is another story entirely). My mom's pretty great.
We went to the independant rental store in the heart of downtown Dover, all one major street of it, and I told Conor to just grab what he wanted to see. I had no real reference. I just wanted to see any horror films I possibly could. Fifteen minutes later, while I was still trying to get my oversized red gumball out of the machine in which I had just sacrificed my last quarter, Conor told me we were all set. I gave one last nudge to the machine, and my gumball somehow jarred loose and rolled into my hand, kind of like a bratty kid who wouldn't move until you told him you were leaving, causing him to cry and run after you. My gumball was screaming, "Noooo!!! I want to be eaten! Don't leeeaave!!"
We got back in the car and took one last errand at the ultimate of childhood treasures: McDonalds. Chicken mcnuggets, fries, a vanilla shake and cookies for later. A big pile of shit that would bring a smile to any youngster's face. Especially if you were a fat kid in training. The drive-thru made the process that much quicker and we were on our way. (Anyone shocked as to why a quarter of the nation's population is obese needs to look no further than the birth of a way to have food handed to you while you're still sitting, never having to move a muscle except to fish an Abraham Lincoln out of your wallet.) The final stop was my house, where that morning I had gathered my sleeping bag and a box of odds and ends for possible late night entertainment as Conor and I would pretend to sleep when we were doing anything but.
We made it to Conor's, our hands clamped with food, accessories and VHS rental cases. The moment the back door was opened, Conor's mother just stepped aside for fear of being knocked over by the youth stampede. Our wet shoes and socks kicked and pulled off, we ran with our overstuffed hands straight up to his room. I took a second to thank his mom for carting us around. I was a polite kid. More, I was safe. Most parents like me because I looked like the most innocent little boy ever created. Times have changed.
We layed out our high calorie bounty on his floor, situating ourselves with our backs resting against his bunk beds and our eyes able to feast on the television screen ahead place in the center of his extra wide bureau. This was the other thing that made Conor cool. He had his own televsion and VCR! We could watch whatever we wanted, whenever we wanted. All the horror movies we could ever ask for.
I had already started to stuff french fries in my mouth, looking out his second floor window. Conor had a pretty big backyard. It was very unkept and always seemed a bit creepy, especially after a creature double feature. The mind can race as a kid, and my attic light used to pulsate violently when I looked out there. Tall weeds, a huge, crooked tree and an iron gate. All that was missing was tombstones with hands rising out of fresh dirt.
He asked me which one I wanted to watch first, shaking one movie in each hand. I told him I didn't even know what they were. Conor smiled, looking at my soft skinned innocence. He may as well have said "I'm about to corrupt you for the rest of your life."
Instead he said, "Tonight's Stephen King night."
"Who's that?"
"You're about to find out."
He put the black VHS boxes face down so that the labels couldn't be read. Then, as if he was a magical carnie, he swirled both boxes in circles back and forth as if he were going to command me to pick a card, any card . This went on for about fifteen seconds. Finally, he raised his hands and smiled at me again.
"Pick your poison."
I pointed to the left case. Conor picked it up so that he could read the title. I silently waited, shoving a full mcnugget dipped in honey mustard into my mouth. Conor turned around the box and in the worst ghoul voice ever said, "Looks like we begin the night with Cat's Eye!"
It could have been anything. I didn't care...I just wanted to be scared. He popped in the tape and sat back down as we finished our dinner out of waxed yellow, red and white paper bags and waxed paper cups with plastic straws, all emblazed with a giant "M".
The movie may not have been amazing, but it did the job. There was a severed finger that scared the shit out of me. There was a thing that lived under a little girl's house that frightened my third grade mind. It was evil, that movie. Plain and simple. Made up of three stories that all ended on sour notes, all three of them giving my young frame a shudder and causing me to avoid looking out the window into Conor's back yard every time I got up to go to the bathroom.
I still didn't quite get what Conor meant by Stephen King night, other than the stories seemed to have been written by him. He knew how to make a kid nervous, I gave him that. But, even though I got scared, I wasn't impressed. It wasn't as if the movie had torn at my very core. Conor ejected the tape and then turned and asked me a question that I remember to this very day.
"So, you ready for the main event?"
I shrugged in an I guess so way. Whatever was next couldn't be that bad.
In a rather large and theatrical presentation, Conor grabbed the other black plastic case and turned it around so I could see the label. "You ever heard of The Shining?" he asked.
Jack Nicholson's manic eyes may not have been staring straight ahead through that broken door, but they sure as hell were looking at me. Straight through me. And, Jack Nicholson (as Jack Torrence) was basically telling me he was about to fuck up my innocent little world.
Tape in.
Cue haunting strings.
Cue opening credits.
I read the words "Based on a novel by Stephen King".
And, within ten minutes, I understood why this was Stephen King night. I'm pretty sure Conor spent less time watching the film and more time watching my reaction to each tension filled minute.
There's really nowhere to begin. The twins in the hallway. Danny Torrence's talking finger. The young / old woman in the bathroom. Everything. All of it. The goddamned axe through the door. This wasn't a movie to my young head. This was an assault. And, scared shitless as I was, I loved every single second of it. That last scene, the panning out of the old photograph, ended. Credits rolled, and I took a big breath. I turned to Conor, shit eating grin still planted on his face, and all I could say was, "Stephen King is awesome."
(Come to find out, Stephen King hated this cinematic adaptation. When I finally read the book years later, I didn't have a problem figuring out why. The things is, Stanley Kubrick made an incredible film. A haunting, intense, piece of celluloid paranoia and psychosis. While watching the film, you were trapped in the Overlook Hotel with Wendy and Danny Torrence. But, it's not Stephen King's novel. Not even close. I remember getting three quarters of the way through the book and asking myself where most of this was in the movie. It was proof that two brilliants minds may not be able to see eye to eye, especially when one is requested to retell a perfect story and somehow also make it their own.)
I didn't sleep that night at Conor's. I didn't even toss and turn. All I remember is staring at his ceiling from the top bunk and thinking of The Shining. One scene at a time. Over and over. I was still young, and this was the first time I grasped the concept that they make films based off of novels. My initial though upon this realization, is that maybe Stephen King has other novels. And, hopefully, more movies to scare the shit out of me.
I left Conor's house early the next morning. As in, like, seven a.m. I walked back home with books on my mind. It was a short walk, maybe ten minutes at the most, that I took at lightning speed, dropping my sleeping bag several times along the way. I swung open the door in an overly dramatic hurry, as if I had been chased by a band of theives. I was excited. I couldn't help it. My mom was in the kitchen, fully armed with a look of disbelief as to why her son was already home. I just told he I couldn't sleep, or something along those lines. I tried to play it cool and not jump all over her, as I had a very important request for the day. I waited a few hours, until my parents had had breakfast. Finally I begged my mom to take the library.
Now, with my mother involved, begging to be brought someplace where the sole purpose was to find things to read was not very difficult. In fact, it wasn't begging. If it involved her son reading, my mom was willing to do whatever needed. We made it down there, to that big brick building and I ran on ahead. I had to ask at the counter for help, since this was big time important business and I had no idea where to look. I wasn't sure if there was a "spooked out of your gourd" section or not. The older woman looked at me a little weird, noting how young I was, but she brought me over there anyways. She patted her hand on a book and then said, "Here they are...." and moved her hand along the whole row. My jaw probably didn't drop, but I'd like to think my eyes bugged out a little bit. The holy grail. I thanked her and began my research.
Honestly, I was extremely intimidated that first day. Probably because my eyes laid first on that behemoth known as The Stand. All ten gazillion pages of it. In fact, all of his books looked pretty thick. After about an hour (and two check ins with my mom) I made my selections. I went slow and steady, starting small. First, was Cycle of the Werewolf. It had pictures. Yeah, that was the deciding factor. I also had watched Lon Cheney as The Wolf Man one Saturday afternoon Creature Double Feature on channel ten and loved the very idea of werewolves. It seemed to be a good way to dip my foot in the guy's work(after, of course, having my skull pummeled by The Shining). The second selection was Skeleton Crew, which was a collection of short stories. Perfect introductions.
I loved them both. I read Cycle of the Werewolf in a few hours and started immediately after with Skeleton Crew. Less than twenty four hours before, I hadn't known his name, and now, Stephen King was my favorite author. It went on for years. I would take forever to read some of his classics. I never found the time during the school years, so most of the reading was done on summer vacation whenever I wasn't outside.
It kept on like this throughout high school, except I'd read less and less, my spare time filled with either jobs, girlfriends or homework. Timing never seemed right, especially for the novels at hand. They deserved my full attention, and that was hard to come by. Then, as high school came and went and I plowed headfirst into the working class, a sad thing happened. I forgot about Stephen King. This is not to say I forgot he wrote, but I forgot to read what he wrote. Visits to Salvation Army stores, yard sales and flea markets would involve me buying a few of his hardbacks for a dollar or two, but then they just sat there on the shelf. I knew they were there. They looked back at me like a sausage on the sidewalk stares at a stray dog. They knew I wanted to ingest them, to soak their words in like a blood sponge. But, still, the time never felt right.
I would still read novels, but the frequency died. I'd get through three, maybe four a year. I'd read a Chuck Palahniuk story whenever it came out. Randoms odds and ends, never really paying attention to any given author. I'd waste my time on bullshit. I don't even have an exact description of said bullshit, but bullshit it was.
Somewhere around the winter of 2003, it all came back. The reading, that is. I had recieved Clive Barker's Abarat for Christmas. It looked incredible. I had cheated and thumbed through it after I had unwrapped it, knowing that Mr. Barker had done a generous amount of illustrations to help tell the story of Candy Quackenbush and her travels. About a month later, during a January snowstorm in which I had lucked out and had the day off from work, I happened to look over at the bookshelf after my first pot of coffee for the day had come and gone. The thick, bold blue spine just shouted at me, "Read! Do it now!!!" So, I did. Twelve hours later, as the snow outside had started to die down and my fourth pot of coffee that day was on it's last cup, I read the final page to the first installment of the Abarat series. Mr. Barker was the one to light that fire under my ass and convince me to resume my infatuation with turning pages.
By a stroke of luck, the next day as I left my apartment building to head over to a corner store, hungry for a Little Debbie cake donut, I looked across the minimally busy Broadway Road in Desperatetown (also known as Derry, New Hampshire). I saw something that I hadn't really noticed for the last six months I had been there. I mean, I'm sure I had seen it, but it never gave me that click! like it did that day.
A used and out of print bookstore.
I bought my little desert snack (two of them, actually...one for now, one for five in the morning when I would inevitably still be awake) and walked across Broadway and straight into the building. It wasn't very well advertised. No neon "open" light....come to think of it, there were no lights outside at all. Unless you checked, it may as well have been permenantly closed. Luckily, the doorknob turned, a little bell anounced to the owner that a new customer was about to present himself, and in I walked. It was a fairly small store upon first glance, but after my initial walk around the walls, I found more than enough to peak my interest. I found an early publishing of James Dickey's Deliverance, Patrick McGrath's Spider and many odds and ends. I took chances on unfamiliar authors, resulting in novels like Graham Joyce's The Tooth Fairy and Michel Faber's Under the Skin, the latter author becoming one of my all time favorites since my initial introduction. It went on like this for a few months and then, unexpectedly, the store closed. I was crushed. This place wasn't anything like a second home to me (I'm not going to be that dramatic...), but it was my adult library. I went there twice a week and bought a book or two, would read them on my days off, then repeat. All of a sudden, it was all gone.
So, I started to hunt. I went back to going to the yard sales, picking up more random novels, all while those Stephen King books longingly hoped I'd pick one of them up. The shelves filled up with no set order or with no end in sight. I'd love to be able to look over at my shelves right now and be able to list everything, but it's not possible. Not because there are too many to list (though, that would be the case ....) but because over the years I've downsized, minimalized and stripped myself of a lot (....if I still had them). I gave away books. I'd sell them back for more. I moved so many times and got rid of so much stuff that I don't have any idea where a lot of my things ended up.
About a year and a half ago, when my wife and I moved to Seattle, our first apartment was down in Pioneer Square. If you ask anyone in Seattle where not to move, they'd probably tell you there. I loved it though. At least, I really liked our studio apartment. It was high up and we had a minor view of our new downtown. The thing that sold me about the location, though, was that right next door was the Seattle Mystery Bookstore. Have I established that I like suspense novels? Good, I'd hoped I was making this clear. So, basically, this place next door was screaming bloody murder at me....almost calling my name. It took a few days of settling in and aranging the apartment before I went over. One project at a time, and every box needs to be unpacked before I can let my mind rest.
My first trip in there was overwhelming. I had no idea where to begin. I, unsurprisingly, became that guy and asked the counter clerk if all the books were really mysteries. She'd heard it before and could tell I wasn't being a dipshit, just another boggled crime reader that stumbled upon the promised land. She said yes, they were, and if I needed any help to please ask. My response was in the form of a question.
"Where do I begin?"
Luckily, she laughed and shot right back, "Anywhere at all, hon. Take your time."
I bookhunted here quite a bit. My main stops were always Elliot Bay Bookstore and Half Price Books. I'd scan the clearance and discount sections first, then move on. I've found some pretty amazing buys. All the while, I'd still pick up a King book whenever I saw one I didn't have.
One local store had a moving sale. I was back in the city for the day and it just so happened to be the last day before they moved. All the books left, hardcover or not, were under two dollars. For one dollar, I found a signed first edition of Dennis Lehane's Shutter Island. One dollar. The first ten pages were worth the price alone. By the time I had finished it, I had a new member of my top ten. (Oddly enough, once I read the novel, I considered how amazing a film adaptation might be. I checked IMDB and typed in the title. Three guesses what Martin Scorcese's next film is? I'm counting the days until I get to sit in a theater with a box of popcorn and see live action versions of all the characters running though my attic) I was able to buy a few titles at that sale that I would have never given a chance. For fifteen dollars, I purchased nine new novels; and since then I've read each and every one. I think I made my money back after reading halfway through the first stack of pages I flipped.
In a roundabout way, I have Poppy Z. Brite to thank as much as Conor. It was an interview in Vice magazine with her (volume 14, number 12). It was their "fiction" issue. I was immediately interested in reading one of her novels as soon as I finished the interview. The description of her early vampire / gothic stories sounded interesting, but it was her last few titles that really caught my attention, those being about two chefs from New Orleans that had decided to open a restaurant called "Liquor". I knew that the used bookstore down the street from our new apartment on Capital Hill (we escaped from Pioneer Square after six months....not a second too soon...) would have at least one of her books for me to buy. No sooner had I finished the article, I had my coat on and was out the door. Now, I'm the farthest from an impulse buyer, but when you want something, you want something. Go get it.
The store actually had three titles for me to choose from: Exquisite Corpse, which by the title alone sounded promising to my little black soul, Liquor and Soul Kitchen. I bought all three. No use deciding. Sometimes you can just tell when something is meant for you, and these books needed a new home. I read Exquisite Corpse first. It was wonderfully written. Graphic. Emotional. Intense. I finished it in one night. I like to read the whole thing in one sitting if I can, and her novels are perfect for that.
The next night was Liquor. It's an understatement to say I loved it from the very first paragraph. Some characters immediately make their mark and, for me, Gary "G-Man" Stubbs and John Rickey were those characters. I read both Liquor and Soul Kitchen, the respective first and third novels in the series, in one night. I bought Prime, the second (or as I'd call it, the cream filling) in the series within the next two weeks. another local bookstore, Bailey/Coy Books, had her novella, D*U*C*K*, that was also part of the series. Subterranean Press had published it, signed in hardcover. It was a little too pricey for my blood, and I knew I'd have to wait until a rainy day when I was able to either finally afford it, or shrug off responsibility for a week. Neither of those ended up being the case. I came home from a very long time on the road, and there sitting on my nightstand when I came into the bedroom for the first time in two and a half months, was D*U*C*K*. My wife is very good at surprises.
I've finally started to dip back into her early work, just last week purchasing Drawing Blood. Though, I'd be lying if I said I'm okay waiting another few years to read about Rickey and G-Man. Great storytelling takes time, so I'll continue to be patient. I'll be there on release day whenever she dives back into Liquorland.
After I had read all I could find by Ms. Brite, I went back and read the interview. She listed A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole as her favorite work of fiction. I figured, "why not?", and picked up a copy. Thank you, Poppy. It was another brilliant satire, told by a tortured mind. Toole commited suicide at the young age of thirty one, considering himself a failed writer. This novel of his was found after his death by his mother, who brought it to a local college professor to read. This novel of his was then published after the professor read it and realized how good it was. This novel of his, young John Kennedy Toole, a "failed writer" who commited suicide, was awarded the Pulitzer Prize in 1981, twelve years after he gave up on himself. John Kennedy Toole, folks, is the reason the phrase "stranger than fiction" is still used today.
Once I had read Confederacy, I went back to the interview. I wanted to see what else Poppy could tell me. I read a few more recommendations Most were entertaining. Some, not so much. But then, as if it were like the books in my shelf that I hadn't looked at for so long, I noticed one single sentence that I truly didn't remember ever reading. She called Stephen King her comfort reads, or something to that affect.
Click!
She was right. He is a comfort read! I looked up from my corner chair and stared at the shelves. There was one big book with a red and white cover that was finally plucked from the island of forgotten toys. Stephen King's Insomnia. I had the time. I had most of the summer free this year because I 1) wasn't on tour and 2) couldn't find a job. I was an involuntary international man of leisure. But, if I was going to be at home for a long period of time, I was damn well going to make it worth it.
It had been, man...like seven years since I read a King novel. Shameful. I had read one short story last sumer, wanting to know the literary version of his short story, 1408, before I saw the movie. It was in King's collection called Everything's Eventual, which was published in 2004 or so (the dates aren't that important, so if anyone wants to point a finger at incorrect statements, I'll politely tell you where to put it once you're done correcting me...). Like I said, I never stopped buying them, just stopped opening the covers.
I read Insomnia over the course of four nights, two hundred pages at a time. I learned the story of Ralph Roberts and the end results of gradual sleepless nights. By the time I was finished, my heart was aching. Part of it had to do with the story itself. It was, at the root, a perfect story of life and death. The other part of the ache came from overflowing of anticipation. I simply couldn't decide which of his works I wanted to read next.
I looked back over at that pile of books and it dawned on me that I had only read the man's early works...up to around 1991 or so. My mission for the summer was to play catch up with my new old friend, to find out what he'd been up to the last seventeen years or so. I jumped around, not taking it so seriously that I was reading in chronological order. I wanted to read them in the order of which title shouted at me after I had closed the back cover, feeling the finished book in my hands. And I learned that I enjoy the new(er) Stephen King more than the early version of the prolific novelist.
Bag of Bones was the one that hit me the hardest. I'm not sure why, but this one is the be all end all for me. I'll probably read it once a year for the rest of my life. There was just something about Mike Noonan's unraveling little haunted story that left me in awe. If you notice, I'm not really describing any of these books in great detail. The reason should be obvious. No one likes a spoiler.
There are a few others that I've read this summer that I hold in high regards. Rose Madder incredibly perceptive and, for most of the story, entirely realistic. There was an underlying redemption soaked in sorrow that King touched upon with every chapter with the greatest of ease. Hearts in Atlantis and Lisey's Story, were both heavy, heavy reads for entirely different reasons. In fact, Lisey's Story left me a bit shook up for a few days. It was so damn personal and, yes, depressing that I finally had to admit that I wasn't prepared for it. At all.
About halfway through writing all of this, I finished up his latest work, Duma Key. I spent six hundred plus pages finding out about Edgar Freemantle's first, second and third lives. About why he has only one arm. About Duma Key itself.
He's always told a great story. Always. I have no complaints about any of his forty novels and two hundred plus short stories, though, I've got about ten scattered novels and a large handful of shorts that I've not yet read. But, for me, somewhere in the early 90's, while every one else in the world was happy with a decade about nothing, Stephen King was telling us all something. His work became unflinchingly epic. He became so in touch with living, dying, with human nature, that his work became more than print. The stories leaped off of the pages and danced into my attic, waking the bats, kicking out the windows and screaming out into the open air.
And there are a lot of us that realize this about him. You don't sell three hundred fifty million of your books to a select crowd. Three hundred fifty million means you've got quite a few people who like you, who wait every year or two for an announcement about a new publication. Luckily, a new collection of short stories was released at the end of 2008. Mid November, there I was, somewhere in Europe, and my inner horror nerd wouldn't stop reminding me that back home there's a brand new book stuffed with new victims and villains. I waited until New Year's had come and gone, and Mr. King and I had a coffee date in my warm bedroom while the pacific northwest rain and snow fell down hard outside. He is also said to be working on a new novel, one he had attempted twice in the eighties to no avail. It will be his longest novel ever. I've read a brief synopsis and it sounds amazing. I'd tell you, but that would be no fun. Go find out for yourself.
So....regrets. In a way, taking this long to read the rest of King's latest works can't be considered a regret, because I really was waiting for the right time. I just regret the right time taking this long to find me. Now that is has, though, I'm going to give it a hard run. What will I do if I run out of new tales to read from him? Start all over. Find all the things I missed the first time around.
I'll probably never get the chance to say hello to him, to thank him for the hundreds (maybe thousands) of hours that he has held my interest. I'll probably never get the chance to explain my gap in time between our visits. Though, I think he would understand all of this, as I am one of the legion of the unnamed that are thanked in every book, united by his appreciation for his "Constant Reader". He provides the stories, and I provide the endless support.
Sometimes, that's all it takes to make a friendship last.